
Reflection theme going on I guess right now...For the 1st time I am really looking at myself...faded, blurred, distant but coming slowly into focus, clearer...I'm not hating myself as much. I'm learning to be happy on my own terms and not because I was told to do it a certain way, but because I am a grown woman with choices. My self esteem issues have played a major role in my obscurity. Daddy issues as well...I'm a daddy's girl who always worries about what he thinks about me or my actions, and I fear his disapproval, his disdain for my choices, his judgment. I'm a woman, with 3 children, when am I going to realize it's OK to make my own mistakes or choices in life, that only God can Judge me? I'm learning...