He's my biggest supporter (Next to God)

My husband is so good to me. I have this stupid complex that I need to get help for, I always think I am undeserving of good things, or people in my life and sometimes even the blessings God gives to me, talk about ungrateful eh? I am trying to stop, and I'm thinking of getting some help in this area. I don't go as far as sabotaging the good in my life, but I go along daily with the mind set of "It's here for now, but it'll so go for whatever reason, because all things do" I'm not some "whoa is me" type of person seeking attention from others or affirmation. I know what my deal is, now I need to go fix it. I bring all of this up because of my husband, he is so good to me, that I sometimes feel like pinching myself so I can wake up. I'm not used to it, and I don't think I ever will be (Unless I seek the aforementioned help), but when he does things for me I feel like he's going to take it back, not because he does this, but for whatever stupid unresolved issues I have. I tell him often that I love him, but I don't think I let him know how appreciative I am for him loving me the way he does, despite my many flaws; mental and otherwise, for taking care of me and our children, for being such a big supporter of anything I do (From radio DJ, to product sales, to acting, to daycare etc. lol), Yeah I'm one of those wishy washy types who can't settle on anything because NOTHING appeals to me...I'm what you call (Or what I like to call) artistic, and us artsy fartsy type of people always have issues settling with one thing because none of what we choose to "try" allows us to express ourselves.

I love you Mario so very much and I know how much you love me (Y u love me remains to be seen) lol. But you do and for that I am grateful, especially to my father God for bringing us together and into this life we share together! Mahal Kita, Te amo con toda mi corazón y alma!